Oxygen Avenue

last post

2009-04-24T17:35:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

This would be my last post on Oxygen Avenue. However, this is not an end in sharing my sweet and sour of life. Do continue with my journey at:

heart of the polaris

him

2009-04-24T04:26:00.000-07:00

i want to hold on to you just like this!

2009-04-23T02:50:00.000-07:00

disappointment

2009-04-21T21:58:00.001-07:00

maybe some may find me weird cause i'm so insistent of getting my connection back. but i have my reasons. i'm not someone who have the patience to sit in the house and work my ass off. keep fucking doing my work and studying. internet is my source of channeling. not exactly stress but a little of distraction after some studying will help me sooth down my overworked brain. and i have someone to talk to if i'm working up late and not feel alone. sometimes i feel better seeing someone online meaning there's someone around. whatever it is, these 4.5 weeks taught me a huge lesson and i'm disappointed with people around me. i've worked really hard these period of time calling and finding someone to look into this matter. and kept calling to remind people in college that the connection problem is not settled... but these people around me, their muteness betrayed me. when the connection is back, everyone's happy. but i don't think they deserve it.... ask their heart what they have contributed. nothing at ALL! i'm not a very calculative person(because i hate misers and calculative people) but this time they went a bit far...

relief

2009-04-21T19:42:00.000-07:00

Thank God I got back my internet connection after 4.5 weeks...

I was really thinking of giving up this morning hoping for it:)

Well, thanks to Miss Satya and Miss Chee for helping me out!

Now, I can happily do my work than feeling depressed all the time!

cause I can now channel all my stress....weeee~

DOWNLOADING, FACEBOOKING and BlOGGING!

28 more days to go!

Oh My Gosh!

2009-04-18T20:57:00.001-07:00

there's too much that i'm about to POP!

i gotta learn that you'll never be around

nor i have to hope...

Pergi

2009-04-18T07:44:00.001-07:00

It's just so soothing to listen to:)

por el momento

2009-04-16T17:04:00.001-07:00

We finally finished our trials and we decided to take half a day off!

We went to Subang Parade to give Ash a surprise visit and TGI Fridays:) We had a super duper lunch there and then, we walked and loitered around...

We didn't know what else to do as there's nothing much there, so we just sit pointlessly outside Levi's...

staring at the poster and analysing it.

But later, we decided to head to Sunway Pyramid

and it's try-out and shopping spree:)

izyan and her outrageous colour combination.

instead of a hand bag, she brings yellow plastic bag from Forever 21...

a little bit of cam-whoring sessions perhaps...

retro!

i love this:)

and i so wanna get this!!!

stars

2009-04-15T20:07:00.000-07:00

when you really mean to love someone,

you look into her face and her eyes,

not her figure

-looking for a star casted by Andy Lau and Shu Qi-

2009-04-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna miss this:)

take 5

2009-04-13T17:57:00.000-07:00

5 minutes is all i took for a decision of a lifetime!

i couldn't take it waiting because it's just so depressing!

and i'm glad that i made my choice:)

it's one which i never really even considered

but out of nowhere and reason,

i opt for it!

small change

2009-04-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

i don't have small change...

so what i did was:

i bought a TOOTHBRUSH!

me now

2009-04-09T05:35:00.000-07:00

spotty spot spot!

2009-04-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

i spotted this when i looked out of the window....

isn't it cute?!

i pray, i wish and i hope

2009-04-02T20:19:00.000-07:00

It's the beginning of April and I'm feeling the time passing fast yet slow.

The exam bell is ringing and it's been driving hypertension in me.

One last exam that will decide my future...

It's only about 49 days away and I have tonnes to do.

(that's what everyone says when exam is around the corner isn't it?)

I do have tonnes to do and I'm not really dividing my time properly.

I don't know which to do first.

Things are just getting a bit tensed lately...everyone and everything.

and well, for some, i'm just immuned and fade up with as they had been going on for sometime,

so i guess i'll just ignore them.

cheers peeps:)

And it's been a week since there's no internet connection in the condo...

and without fail, i try to look for an internet connection everyday because I need it.

and that's why I'm here in Starbucks sipping another espresso!

Okay, maybe I'm an online-addict...

And life without it is just like losing my left hand...it's just hard and sad because everything is so-not-a-fingertip-away!

I pray that all these will end soon, well and happily. And I really wish that dreams will come true as I so wish as I'm really working hard for it. And I hope I'll get the internet connection back soon and everyone will be fine and happy especially to my friends who are gonna be at "war" with me in 49 days...

current mood

2009-03-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

because there's no internet connection...

when you get fruity

2009-03-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

Miss Strawberry

Mr. Orange

breaking free

2009-03-27T04:27:00.000-07:00

i long to feel free like this

i'm suffocating for the time being

i'm tired...

2009-03-24T05:59:00.001-07:00

“ You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, and she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

it's been a depressing and compressing day . thanks to my migraining symptoms. but this beautiful lines of words cures the pain...hope you enjoyed it.

p/s: i got it from amyazhar.

2009-03-21T02:20:00.000-07:00

I miss them:

SYAMIL

IZYAN

AMY

FARAH

once upon a time

2009-03-19T15:44:00.000-07:00

After 6 years, I'm finally going back to the place where I'm born. Well, all this while I can't exactly say I did not step into that place, perhaps just passing the place...

The on Road

The paddy fields we crossed throughout the journey (from Kuching to Sibu)

hours and hours of drive might be tiring but when these views come into your eyes, it cures it all!

reminds me a song by the Beatles, Across the Strawberry Fields.

the tree which caught my eye eversince I was three. And it's still there. I remembered that I used to ask Papa lots and lots of question about the tree.

(It's located along a road in Serian)

It's been there already before I'm born and the locals never did anthything to it because it's just too beautiful...

and back at home(old house), across the road, there's an abondoned house(the one in the pic)

that's where i used to spend my evenings with my elder sis and cousins. playing hide-and-seek and scavanging...

I can only watch it from far now cause time doesn't permit me to go near. We were in rush to go elsewhere.

the tree in the backyard

the the little flowers blosssoming among the wild grasses

i used to step and pluck them all the time...

then, i went back to the central market in sibu

i was astonished because i can't believe that i can still see bicycles around.

they are not the modern bicycles but the old ones that's as old as your grandparents.

the trishaw

some roadsigns there

she sells gold by the old shops... her expression seem eerie, so i took a snap of her:P

Everything I saw these two days really made me feel nostalgic. I've aged and moved on... There's still little things that remains. I long for the childhood I used to have...It's really been a long long time.

2009-03-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

on the road again

sit, wait and feeling lucky

2009-03-14T20:07:00.000-07:00

status : idling in Mc Donalds

location :KUL LCCT

mission :waiting for flight AK 5208 back to Kuching

It's mid-term break! Let's call things for a break, not exactly cause there will be lots of exams coming up soon~ some stayed back to study while some, like my case is just thinking of going somewhere cozy for a break while getting some revisions going on:) Maybe, I just need some sort of temporary-environmental-change...so yeah, I'm going home!

I've been sort of lucky these few days... Maybe my cheery mood made me felt that way. My book made me happy, my friends and just everything that is around me. Maybe the idea of going home contributes to it too. Despite the fact of having exam"s", I can still maintain my mood. I think from now onwards, I'll try to go calm and steady. It's better than freaking out.

I just feel happy:) Why am I feeling lucky?? It's because I just found my identitiy card yesterday. It's been missing for weeks and I never bother to look up for it. And it just popped out yesterday morning and walah!- i need not worry about finding my I.C. for my flight today!

Yesterday, I had a wonderful morning with the dodgeball team(Amy and Izyan inclusive) in Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, together with Hakim and Effa (they are Izyan's bro and sis)~

The Rockin' Ronnins

Idling by the platform while waiting for our turn!

Then I went to KLCC to meet up with Cindy:) While waiting for her arrival, I took a stroll and the fountain was flourishing super gracefully!

isn't it beautiful??

(i took the pic indoor cause it's too hot...i had enough of the sun in Perhentian

and currently going through metamorphosis:P? it'll be even better if i take the pic outdoor!

Time Traveller's Wife

2009-03-10T19:40:00.000-07:00

The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger

One of the most beautiful story ever:)

Will post up more when I finish the story!

2009-03-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

*p/s: sorry jill. i got it wrong. just imagine u read it as "shreekast":)

i'm sorry

2009-03-09T22:57:00.000-07:00

i missed my friend

Perhentian Island

2009-03-09T18:12:00.000-07:00

Getting ready for one of our life time stop!

We took a bus in Putra Bus Station to Kuala Besut. The journey took us about 8 hours.

From Kuala Besut, we took a fast boat to...

Perhentian Island!

Perhentian is just gorgeous. The waters, the rocks, the trees and the beach.

Every angle of the island is just as fabulous.

The sunset

Caption: Womaniser

Mr. Handsome has company~

idling by the beach with a fallen timber

jetty at coral bay

buttock for sale!

(*p/s: it's syamil, not me:P)

beach babes posing

yoga of the century

cheeky

on our boat to snorkel!

snorkelling

lots of fishes around us!

waiting for sunrise

weee~

overall, perhentian is superb!

2009-03-03T04:40:00.001-08:00

OBB status: mission accomplished

* the trill is less than 48 hours away! hehehe~

yellow raincoat

2009-02-27T05:02:00.000-08:00

I want a YELLOW RAINCOAT!

don't ask me why I want a raincoat, it's a little secret:P will let you know when the time comes!

isn't yellow raincoat a charming attire? even cats look good in them:)

Today, I talked to Yien Hsiu on the phone, we talked about needing a raincoat soon...hehehe...

and I told her I want a yellow one cause it's just seems adorable to me!

*p/s: yien hsiu, can you take a photo like the little boy with my yellow raincoat? I'll owe you a big time...weeeeeeee~

abondono

2009-02-25T07:56:00.000-08:00

I'm so sorry for not having more photos recently. There's just nothing very interesting- no outing, no activities nor special ocassion. It's just me, college and piles and piles of work and revisions.

this doesn't look very interesting

After a month, I finally went for a taekwondo training. I put on weight and no longer as flexible. That's just pathetic! And worst of all, I felt lost or perhaps left behind with all the current activities. The people are still as lovely and spirited but it just felt different. It makes me feel foreign yet familiar. Akma's back in the team. I remembered that she was already in the team when I first participated about two years ago... It felt so nostalgic.

All the memories and ups and downs just came back flashing...happy and sad. Mostly happy and funny but for the sad part, it had killed half of me about half a year ago.

Thanks to Bian, I came for the photography session and got back a long lost touch of the team. We took some random pictures. (I'll post some of them as soon as I obtain them)

this is the hardest tag!

2009-02-22T06:05:00.000-08:00

The rules are simple..
- do not copy the answers
- the tag questions must be 100% same
- tag ppl after doing the tag
- no tagging the same ppl back
- go do in facebook, blogger, wherever.

ppl i tag:
1.hardeep

2.syamil

3.phillip

4.farouq

5.syamil

6.syamil

7.syamil

8.syamil

how do u noe number 1?

in a lecture hall

what'll u do if u never met number 2?

i'll keep on searching for him till i find him

what would u do if 2 and 3 dated u?

2 is date-able but i love him too much cause he is my best friend. and 3 is too nice and he's definitely for someone better.

would 4 & 5 make a good couple?

they would if they are homosexuals.

do u think number 5 is attractive?

of course! he's syamil...attractive and brilliant brilliant bestie!

do you noe anything bout number 8 family?

yeah...

tell me something about number 4?

a very kind and lovely soul... he just brings a lot of laughter, shine and hope in people around him.

what language does number 2 speaks?

english

who is number 3 going out with?

he is still single.

how old is number 4?

turning 20 in july.

when was the last time u talked to number 5?

few seconds ago.

who is number 6 favourite singer?

no one very particular i think. as long as the song is nice, he just listens to it.

would u date number 5?

yes but if he is still someone new to me. but it's hard to date ur own friend...it's not worth risking the friendship with love.

is number 8 single?

nope, he's taken...

what do u think about number 3?

i love philip. he has all the good qualities as a person and very very beautiful inside out!

*p/s: i really don't know who else to choose to tag this tag cause it's hard to find any guy in my mind.

clouds

2009-02-20T20:20:00.000-08:00

as peaceful as these clouds

as floaty as these clouds

but as unsure because some things are still cloudy

Al Farouq

2009-02-15T00:24:00.000-08:00

from left: me, farouq, izyan, amy, farah, syamil

It's a farewell bid today to Farouq. I'm going to miss him so much! A friend who went through with me a lot of ups and downs eversince our Educamp, The Interview and together we pursued the Scholarship and came to KL to finish our pre-U. Well, he's done his A levels 6 months ahead of me and today he'll be off to Australia.

I had been thinking of him the previous night. It felt like his around still and I decided to give it a try. Then I got to call him:D and he's flying the next day!!! I was thinking of bidding him farewell on the phone with Farah because it'll be too costly for us to go to KLIA.

Out of the bluemoon, we decided to head to Putrajaya to meet him just for a while since Farouq is staying around there. Though it's far from where we are currently living now, it's well-connected with public transport services.

We met him and hung around, had our finale chat and had lunch:D It's just sweet. We went searching for souvenirs for each of our members in the 'ci ku pang' sorority- me, farouq, farah, izyan, syamil and amy

Here's a memory of Farah and I taken by Farouq. I felt really touched when I looked at this photo, which I don't know why; and it means a lot to me too. There's a myth which I believe it's truthfulness- all the wonders and beauty in the photographs taken are actually the wonders and beauty seen through the eyes of the photographer.

Farouq has been one of the most wonderful soul I ever met my entire life and I definitely bet, everything through his eyes will be beautiful. I pray for his happiness and may all his kindness be blessed with many returns throughout the eternity!

We initially thought we took a picture with him too but too bad, I guess the stranger we had asked for help did not actually took the snap:( From the bright side, thank God, he did not take the snapshot because it's bad to have three person in one photo because the three people will end up being apart. Besides, photos reminds him too much of sentimental emotions and he preferred not to take too much of photos.

here's what Farah and I got him. It's the most meaningful and beautiful calender I've ever seen and hopefully days in it will be the gateway for his success and dreams.

*p/s: farouq, if you do read this post, just to tell you, I'm really glad we became friends and had shared so much with me though distant most of the times. See you again! And the 'ci ku pang's will always keep a place for you and be around!

ranting alma

2009-02-10T22:07:00.000-08:00

is it me or it is someone else

i shouldn't be bothered like it concerns me

no entienda! no entienda!

patience seems to be missing in the atlantic oceans

the anger flowing through every single vein

the region of north pole doesn't seem to be enough to cool it

despise things against the norm

silence

seize everything!!!

Tagged

2009-02-09T22:51:00.000-08:00

1. Name one person who make you laugh last night?
Cheryl, Bian, Teck Loon, Jeff and his wife, Carlos, Watson, Yunglin

2.What were you doing at 0800?
I was on my way to my friend's house.

3.What were you doing 30 minutes ago
Sleeping.

4.What happened to you in 2006?
I had the best year in high school and had a the most achievement at the point of my life.

5.What was the last thing you said out loud?
I think my body co-ordination is abnormal today.

6.How many beverages did you have today?
Sky juice.

7.What color is your hairbrush?
Red.

8.Was was the last thing you paid for?
Groceries.

9.Where were you last night?
Jeff's house.

10. What color is your front door?
Brown.

11.Where do you keep your change?
In my usual blue bag, purse and my pink tin.

12.What's the weather like today?
Sunny and heaty.

13.What's the best ice-cream flavor?
I have no idea.

14.What excites you
err...4 more months to the completion of my A levels.

15.Do you want to cut your hair?
Nope!

16. Are you over the age of 25?
In a few more years.

17.Do you talk a lot?
It depends on who I am with. but i like it quiet.

18.Do you watch the O.C?
What's that?

19.Do you know anyone named steven?
Yeap! A few...can't rmbr which is which and how are we related.

20.Do you make up your own words?
Yeah...there's too many especially when i hv to tendency to blurt out alien new words.

21. Are you a jealous person?
At random when i wonder why things are that easy for some people.

22.Name a friend whose name starts with the letter A?
Anie

23.Name a friend whose name starts with the letter K?
Ken

24. Who's the first person on your received call list?
Yunglin

25.What does the last text message you received say?
Are you coming today?

26. Do you chew on you straw?
Yea...I chew it till it disappears.

27.Do you have curly hair?
Not at all.

28. Where's the next place you're going to?
My kitchen.

29.Who's the rudest person in your life?
Er...I have no idea . Who would give a damn to remember anyway?

30.What was the last thing you ate?
Cheese Sausage.

31.Will you get married in the future?
Definitely!

32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
All 's Well, End's Well.

33.Is there anyone you like right now?
Nope unless my ex-bf counts...

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Last night.

35. Are you currently depressed?
Yes, I am struggling to make it to reach a minimum cut-off point to UK which was set by my scholarship.

36.Did you cry today?
Nah...

37.Why did you answer and post this?
Syamil tagged me.

I'm not tagging anyone. Just feel free to do the tag!

random thoughts

2009-02-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

Time flies. It's another new week... I had a chat with a few friends whom I had long lose touch with. They made me realise how much things can change in a short period of time especially this two years. Now, everyone is in their own path and deciding their directions...some changed for the better while some for the worst. The remains, they just are the same!

I went for an informal interview yesterday for the University of Bath at Traders Hotel KLCC. It's a really nice and grand place...with lots of foreigners especially English. I felt sort of intimidated and and definitely feel very small. Everyone present seem to look very sophisticated, especially the girls, very girly and well dressed. (I still put my sneakers on:p)

I told papa before that i'm feeling so small at the moment...he texted me saying:

"you might be small but you are still my great daughter so now be confident on your own"

i'm really touched. To be frank, my parents never went to any of my important events and this time, they eventually called and texted me. I'm glad:)

I can't wait to tip my toes in Perhentian with my friends...it's going to be unforgettably maravilloso~it's in march and i can wait for the march moon. But that also in another way reminding me that my time is running out. My A levels will be cornering more and more and "rinnnnnnnng" time's up! tomorrow's your judgement day after the whole two freaking years. And yet, there's still tonnes of unrevised work...plus I'm not mentally prepared at all. I'll fix that soon I guess?

I'm nervous and anxious yet excited, thrilled and happy...I suppose I'm currently in a mixed-emotion mood!

february wind

2009-02-06T07:42:00.000-08:00

it's february! january had passed so fast...like a blink of an eye:D

basically lots of important events happened in january....

a series of what i can say fortunate events:

1) i got all my offers for all the Uni's that i applied(yippie)

2) went home and had a great chinese new year celebration(too bad i put on weight though)

3) i got a job:D and is happy with it...

4) it was my birthday and i had lots of blessing. i'm a happy 20! though single, i still have my best mates!

5) i fail physics and f.math's semester exam! (crappy but still i'm happy)

January Happiness

home- the finest place to turn to!

"Nien Kau"- chinese traditional cake during Chinese New Year

there's just so many of them- looks amazing!

i finally got my cheongsam!

sisters

housemates: they just flourish my life everyday!

and i have travelling plans with my travel mate to look foward to!

well, february had started well i bet!

1) i got my first pay check!

2) i just got a little push to study(that's a good sign cause i should have it 1.5 years ago, hope it's not too late)

3) i registered for my exam...cross my fingers hard for everything!

4) i'm finishing college in 4 month's time! and had got a date of confirmation to finally leave PJ, KL once and for all!(hurray)

5) planning for a vacation in Perhentian!

*p/s: well, i don't have pics for my february happiness:D maybe more pics later...perhaps!

for the moment i just dont have much in mind...i just want every second to serve me the best purpose! i just can't wait to finish... and is super duper hoping that tomorrow is september fall already:D

2009-02-02T06:01:00.000-08:00

i'm so sorry blog...

i've put u aside for a while

i promise to flourish you up this weekend:)

*p/s: missing home so much!!!

Happy Ox Year

2009-01-25T04:03:00.000-08:00

2009-01-20T14:36:00.000-08:00

my heart is pounding a million hertz at the moment...

tip tub tip tub...

hear the clock's ticking...

tick tock tick tock....

the water's leaking at the kitchen tap...

tick tick tick tick...

i can't stand it

i can't take it

can it be over without the process

which can take my heart out right at it's place?

my fingers shaking non-stop

anxiety

nerve-wrecking

daddy

2009-01-18T07:26:00.000-08:00

"feel so different yet so much alike"-lucy dawson

I watched "I Am Sam" like Syamil recommended... and guess what, i cried for two friggin' hours throughout the whole movie...

a father's love- he might be slightly different but the love of a father conquers it all

I went to meet papa yesterday at One Utama. Had missed him a lot... together with his friends, my so-called uncles... we had lunch and walked around. surprisingly papa got me a t-shirt: ) and toothpastes(cause i always run out of them) that's really sweet of him. we just talked and walked and talked and walked. had dinner at this restaurant serving Penang Cuisines... and the nasi lemak was superb!-it's because of the special coconut rice...

Went I came back to the condo, I watched I Am Sam! and I just couldn't take it!!! It was too touching...Reminds me a lot of papa during childhood especially the part when Sam got Lucy a pair of shoes...

I remembered there's once he got me a pair of blue sneakers and i didn't liked it. I sulked and refused to wear them...gosh, i such a brat if i think back:( but when i wore them, i just fell in love with them that i refused to change them when they got too small for me... missed those sneakers... papa had always been the one buying me sneakers all these years... even till this very day. he just got me a pair last year:p

I LOVE DADDY!

*p/s: had been tagged as daddy's gal all my life:p and i'm glad to be!!!

waterfall chilling

2009-01-17T06:50:00.000-08:00

My very first class trip to Sg. Chiling in Kuala Kubu Bharu.

It's called Chiling and it is indeed chilling....

the classmates!!

the housemates:D

the entrance of Sg Chiling

our route...

somewhere in the jungle...

chilling by the river

here's the waterfall!

it's really really cold...bet the temperature would be around 20 degrees (that's cold relatively to the tropical climate here)

rejoicing when we get to discover the waterfall. well, we basically went through 6 rivers and tracks to this exqusite site...

when the monkeys are on high rocks...huhu~

my precious

i can't believe i jumped! thanks to syamil for this beautiful shot:)

i had a lot of fun with all of them and yeah, just realised how much i loved them...

new moon

2009-01-16T03:53:00.000-08:00

it's been days since i've blogged...

it had been a busy yet relaxing week...(that sounds confusing)

i've been busy with work and colllege stuff to catch up with

and relaxing cause lessons had not really begun and we had two days off:))

had a wonderful class trip with all my classmates in Sungai Chilling, Kuala Kubu Bharu!!!

[will upload the pics later]

working at Kumon was quite enjoyable and today was my 2nd day of work...

taught math and really enjoyed it cause they understood what i taught...yippie (it's really a success cause it's my first time teaching and i successfully guided the children better than some older tutors)... i guess i finally overcame my fear with teaching people cause i usually know things my way and it's hard to express what i understood...

i finished reading new moon(stephanie meyer)

i have to say that the story is not very attractive. i started reading this book cause it's a sequel to the movie twilight. I read twilight too and it's very good itself. I got a bit disapointed when I read the second book because the story doesn't revolve very dramatic nor interesting climax...

However, the book made me emo... especially when towards the start when edward is about to leave bella...to my surprise, there's a lot of lines in the book was what i said and asked fendy when he was leaving me. (way too much similarity) and the months... september, october, november, december, january.... it's exactly like how i had went through these few months after he left...nothing much... i quite bit attached towards some lines in the book:( cause it brought back memories...lots of it... and also dilemma between a lover and a best friend...

moving on eclipse soon:)) can't wait!

guess that's all for the week...and promise i'll update on the trip to Chiling!!! soon, perhaps tomorrow??

next week will be the most exciting week:) results are coming out and i've prepared myself for the worst... and am going home next week too; how i had missed home!!!

freebie

2009-01-11T03:58:00.000-08:00

i have no idea why but i was like on top of the world when i get to see that the cultured milk has freebies...

thoughtlessly, i bought it just because there's free crayons^^

the cashier looked at me awkwardly when i asked for the free crayons

"she's too old to ask for a little box of crayons"-bet that's what she thinks

whatever it is, i'm so happy with my crayons...

i'm turning "nutcaseeee"!!!!!

i am:

20

2009-01-09T03:11:00.000-08:00

i am so gonna miss this:)

how does it feels like to be 20?

well, i can say greaaaaaaaat!!!!

everything seems cool eversince college started minus the exams.

syamil, amy, yan and farah are as animated as usual:)

got lots of stories and talks just seem neverending...kekeke...

and got loads and tonnes of birthday wishes so i guessed i'm a blessed baby

love all these people:)

the classes are well scheduled because it's not as packed and exhausting as last year's

however, a lot of things still have to be done because A2 is awaiting us...

it's the final battle which will decide where our future leads.

but the process, which is most essential though a bit hard, the revision, will drain us but i bet everything's gonna be fine.

as the saying goes: if there's a will there's a way and how much you put in is how much you gain

*so, KAMBATEH peeps*

frankly speaking, 2009 is an extremely exciting year to look ahead as far as i can see

though i can already see the tonnes and tonnes of work i have to browse through and master them, i still have a great feeling about everything

and till i come to actually count and think about it, those work doesn't matter much but is process of going through it.

i have my great friends here in college especially amy, yan, farah and syamil. i won't have a lot of time with them anymore...5 months is a short time. i just want to appreciate them every second when they are around.

and the best part is travelling:)

lots and lots of plans

especially with my travel buddy, syamil:)

and of course a trip with amy, yan and farah

hopefully everything goes smooth and we have sufficient time to go somewhere together

other than that is $$(money)

the most essential of all elements i can say...hehehe

really need to save up a lot as in A LOT!!!

am gonna figure out!

dominos in mc d

2009-01-06T10:12:00.000-08:00

so we had a day's out in McD together again after 6 months. the last time was big mac chant! and this time, we rocked Mc D with something new despite winning off 6 Big Mac the last time...kekeke!

what are we up to?

don't they look fishy?

what's with the 4 boxes of coco crunch??

cause there's madagascar cards played as dominos!!!

so, the whole stroy started with our sweetheart izyan:)

she bought a box of coco crunch over the weekends and discovered the freebie in it(which was the cards)...while enjoying our food, she sneakily pulled out a handful of cute little cards from her bag, which we all started playing and had not enough with it:p

with farah's brilliance, we all went to a near by store and bought 4 boxes of coco crunch to get more cards to play a better game of dominos!!!

kekeke...

with luck, we had two more stacks of domino cards from two of the boxes, one memory card game and one poker card game:)

played all night long...hehe!

last semester

2009-01-03T04:51:00.001-08:00

thanks to all my beloved family members

papa, mama, ah ju, ah siew, ah nong and ah jik

they got me cake and had a early celebration for me:)

i'm so touched and super happy!!!!

and fyi, i haven't had a b'day cake eversince i was 13!!!

and right now, i'm back in petaling jaya

not very pleasant this time carrying the guilt of not flipping a single page yet exam is less than 48 hours away...i'm going OMG

nevermind that...we'll see what we can do abt it:p

it's the last semester!!!

finally and two years and kdu is gonna end in another few months

i'm thrilled cause it'll be another new phase of life:)

i cross my fingers hard and pray that everything is as smooth as zero friction

everyone's gonna fly safe!!

am looking foward to see my darlings again

and spend these last few months with great memories

that's all for now

and let's see what's awaiting us in our last sem :S

my prayers: i promise i'll be good...pretty please make my dreams come true:D

good old days

2009-01-01T01:03:00.000-08:00

First and for most, I would like to wish every living thing out there a Happy New Year 2009!

And here's the best part. I had a day's out with my best friend, Sheedot!

Sheedot, he sweet and charming girl I got to know eversince I was thirteen. 7 years, is how long i learnt of her...what a wonderful long relationship we had bonded.

We had been together in everything during our whole high shool period... then things changed that we have drifted apart taking our own paths, determining and looking for where we belong someday.

What i find special is: We haven't exactly been in touch most the times throughout the two years we are apart. I can say not more than 10 SMSes that we exchanged per year. And phone calls, rarely...once in a blue moon. I called her a few times when i got super down with conflicts and that also not to the count of more than 5! I have to admit, sometimes i do miss her and sometimes i felt i had been deviating from her long way, losing track of her and our friendship seems to fly in time. (sheedot that's how i felt at times) But whoever asks me who's my bestie currently, with no second thoughts, it's always her(by reflex)... she's irreplacable, i realised, no matter what happened and how diverging our ways led.

But today when we got together, every tingle and bits of feelings... it's different. It's the same old feelings, same old days. Same old jokes and same old laughters. We still have the old stories, but more of new stories and dreams.

Here's a picture of us:)

We are both gonna be 20, i'll step into the 2nd decade before hers...(she's april baby).

With the same old feelings just like the old days, we did something new together today which was shopping. We used to work and work and work together.... and now things changed as we have proceeded to the next level.

Here's my starry starry pumps from Sheedot for my Birthday!( i got her red ones but flowery)

that will be our first step to step into the beginning of something new. we'll set foot together into our new world later pursuing our dreams no matter where we are and i really cross my fingers for both of us for our next level which is to fly.

*p/s: sheedot, if ur reading this, just bare in mind, u'll always have me:) no matter what...

faceless dude and the pig

2008-12-30T04:22:00.001-08:00

here's a the story of the red pig and the faceless dude:p

oink, oink...bang u from the back...kekeke

u pig! u're banging me right in my face

but u got no face...says pig
damned!...says faceless dude...
his head fell off
uh oh! ...pig says

i don't know where's ur face and i'm gonna feel awkward talking to stg faceless
nevermind, just look up and u can talk to me.

end of story

old junkies!

2008-12-30T04:01:00.000-08:00

well, it's around year end and everyone's cleaning up the house...especially when chinese new year is just 4 weeks away!! and look at what i found!

letters from friends when i was in elementary level

my very first phone pouch and name tags

neckties during my high school and birthday cards!

and guess what i still keep??
the mask used during the most terrible haze in 1998
and that was like 10 years ago!

and this lil tag made me smile.
made it in primary school:)

i just have a habit of keeping all the little things because i just can't bare to throw them... it's a habit that my mum doesn't like cause she thinks that i'm keeping too much junk and it taking up lots of space...but i wouldn't be sitting here remembering so much sweet childhood memories:)

however, after flipping back everything, i threw everything today:( i guess it's time to learn how put some stuff aside. just keep it in the heart<3

the next dawn

2008-12-23T17:00:00.001-08:00

it's exaclty 9.01am...
had been awake since seven;
sipping a hot glass of warm water
enjoying the breeze of the cold rainy morning glaring outside the kitchen window
it's raining... i always liked rain
with the rhythm of this melancholy song playing in my notebook...xia yi ge tian liang(the next dawn)
tears fell upon me without me really knowing why...

it's been quite sometime since i've put all the worries and sad things aside
but it seems that it'll come to this very second that i have to reflect back
it made me feel like i'm in a little dark corner somewhere...trying hard to overcome every hard feelings whilst waiting for the day to appear.

i bet it happens to everyone...
i just don't like the feeling of fear and being insecure.
it's eve...
i missed him today.
merry christmas fendy:)

and here's the song that i would like to dedicate to anyone who comes across this post:)
it's with english subtitle, so i guess friends who doesn't knows mandarin can understand the song as well!

Christmas

2008-12-23T05:21:00.000-08:00

It's Christmas and another year is about to end!!!

Here, I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and

Happy Holidays!

Have a warm and memorable christmas with your loved ones!

and to all my loved ones:

I LOVE YOU LOTS AND A BIG WARM HUGs:)

*p/s: i'll update more once i'm free! cause christmas is really driving me crazy!

tagged!

2008-12-21T04:08:00.000-08:00

i can't remember when was the last time i got tagged but this time, i got it from shidot and afiq!

when i'm in front of my notebook, late in the morning...after some coffee and unchanged!

thank God i brushed my *teeth*

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now

2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair......just take a picture

3. Post that picture with NO editing

4. Post these instructions with your picture

5. Tag 5 people to do this

syamil

cheryl

amyazhar

sherenesheep

alieff

Borneo: Sarawak

2008-12-18T21:18:00.000-08:00

another wonderful memory of the three sepets and this time, it took place in the land of hornbills!

santubong beach

rocky beach

practising yoga

wandering along the beach while enjoying the breeze

the little girl who caught my eye

her carefreeness and innocence...i long for those feelings

staring out in the sky, as the breeze blows in

i wonder what we have in mind then

amazing sandpit

i just love the mud, very sensuous:)

an extremely challanging trail at mount santubong

had walked for 1.5 hours

the waterfall we discovered halfway along the trail

it was exquisite

after completing the trail, we were led to the 2nd beach...

it was so beautiful that i really can't take my eyes of it

and we go dangling...

and hanging...weee....

hanging around the rocks

leaving my trademark

enjoying the serenity

after that, we discovered a jungle pool

and had a break for the day

dipping but not skinny dipping

will do it someday

after that, we had a trip to sarawak cultural village

and explored the sarawakian ethnic heritage!

trying out traditional dance

our abang orang ulu with his sumpit, posing for us

wood carvings by international artists with tree barks of sarawak rainforest

whatever it is, the most unforgetable experience was our coconut adventure

how i love coconuts

we plucked coconuts(illegally) and yum yum...

really nice though! and thanks to syamil, we event ate it's meat with the plastic spoon he brought:)

day 2...

guess where we went??

syamil and i went on an expedition to the bako national park!

where we saw monkeys and got chased by them too:p

the trail

looks like a never ending road; just like the pathway of journey of life

we reached the highest peak of Teluk Pandan Besar

it was superb...inexplicably exquisite.

photographs can't explain it's beauty!

we later took another trail to Teluk Pandan Kecil

and here's the peak of the cliff giving us the view of Teluk(cove) Pandan Kecil

as we went down to the beach of Teluk Pandan Kecil,

we realised how high was the peak! we were above there looking down...

amazing!

it's just so beautiful

the limestone; the waves; the breeze...it's a place like no other on earth!

we later went exploring the cove and found a little cave:)

and had meditated...OM...peace:D

up the rocks! on top of the world!!!

the limestone and us!

climbed up the high rocks and relaxing...while enjoying the view

laying our raincoat...idling, and lying happily

before leaving the beach, we found a bottle and wrote our wish!

i'll keep my fingers crossed for that:)

day 3...

it was a rainy morning

we had a trip to Teluk Paku which was about a 800m walk

it was magnificent!

we sat there for quite sometime enjoying the drizzles and breeze

with our raincoats, it was really sweet:)

staring out at the sea...

this picture is one of my favorites...meaningful yet mysterious:)

and also not forgetting, we made a new friend:)

jacyln

excitement

2008-12-12T06:00:00.001-08:00

i'm finally going home...

i'm going home!!!

i can't wait:)

BTN 2008

2008-12-07T06:09:00.000-08:00

At the concourse of Tower 1, KLCC, we gathered and are waiting for the bus to depart.

we were scared yet anxious- wondering what were are gonna be attempting during the camp!

the three "sepets"

when we turn into uniforms:p...we look so pure and "baik"

farah and i just seem exactly the same in high school...looking at us, reminds me lots of high school memories...*so sweet*

we got name tags!!!

syamil nampak terlalu baik...*syamil, reveal ur horns!"

the outcome of boredom... i ended up writting journals during the talk(ceramah) or i'll really fall asleep

izyan is org utan kelantan

i am org utan sarawak

padang kawat...sun bathing:) kuang kuang...

i met my high school class monitor(afdhal)

where the "kolejans" unite... was really glad!

Kumpulan 1...love everyone cause i think they are the best of all! COOLNESS!

C-10-11, ring the door bell plz! (me and my housemates)

sepets in full uniform! smart right??

in the classroom:> happy

when we are having our outdoor, waiting for the rest to finish off their repellant

new friends:) glad to know all these nice ppl...

summary:

i completed a 4 nights 5 days Kem Biro Tatanegara in Kem Bina Negara, Meru, Selangor!

i basically enjoyed the camp because i met lots of new people and get to know Malaysia more regarding it's history and constitutient. some did not enjoy it that much though. whatever it is, i guess i'm just lucky, meeting all the great ppl in Kumpulan 1(Gashini, Pei Yee, Izyan, Prabu, Rashid, Bian Ahmed, Azfar, Allan, Faheem and Nadiah). Had the best fascilitator too, Mr. Zulkarnain. He had really brought us a lot of fun and laughter:) without him, i bet BTN will be dead...

the camp is basically on talks during the 1st 2 days and the other 2 days will have LDKs( latihan dalam kumpulan/ group discussions). in the morning, there'll be light excercises and afternoon, there'll be some outdoors like repellant and physiological test. there'll be exam on the last day and end of story. don't worry for those who had not been to BTN whose turn will come later. It's a moderate camp but puncuality and discipline is of great importance. just follow the rules and you'll be safe and sound. bathroom and stuff are quite okay(trust me cause i'm a bathroom paranoid). food is okay too provided u are not too choosy. and if it's not enough, u can ask for more. appreciate what you get!

My best experiences: am called tiga kali satu/ triple one due to my participation code, was the first to try out repellant, went into the swamp and made a speech!

Smile because it happened

2008-11-29T18:16:00.000-08:00

It's Nov 30th and year 2008 in college and pelangi utama, as I can summarise, has finally came to an end.

Tomorrow's BTN, the camp that I had been fearing to go for eversince months ago when I found out that I actually had to attend it.My National Service phobia had not really recovered though it's been 2 years already. I just don't enjoy life in camps and live in a so-called "disciplined environment" and politics.

What can I say about this year here? The word is- UNPLEASANT.

It's been a tiring year and a hard one too. For the first time of my life, this is the period of time when I worried, fear and cried the most- exams, problems, people around me and boyfriend.

It's nothing unique because I bet everyone in this world experience the same thing. As for exams, I had obtained straight B's for my AS level and it really strucked me. It broke my 11 years' of record and for the first time I failed to maintain my flush Aces on my papers. But somehow, I did overcame the failure and it'll be a lesson of life. And I really had a whole year of incessant exams, which I finally got immuned to. At times, I wonder what I'll do without exams. I just have to work harder:)

Problems, yes. I'm a very troublesome person. I encountered a number of misfortune this one whole year. I had to operate my feet, I lost my IC and driving license, I got sued by Maxis and U Mobile, those are some major problems that I can remember.

With people around me, i had my great time getting to know them especially my housemates (Amy, Yan and Farah) , my buddy, Syamil. Well, there can't be perfection. This is also the first time of my life that I actually loathed someone. After numerous times of forgiveness and acceptance, things just never change. Jane Doe, had never looked back at her own mistakes yet still blamed others for what had happened to her. Jane Doe to be more precise, is revengeful, digging up the pas, whereas pity herself of innocence-that is very selfish. Hence, affecting oddness around some used-to-be lovely friends.

Boyfriend. I broke up this year. It never came across me that I would be involved and unfortunately, it had turn into a failure. It's the saddest thing I went through on top of every obstacle I encountered. He left me hanging and suffocating until the very second that I thought I drowned. I'll never forgive him for what he did. Never because I don't think I can.

Family. I was intially not that of the family type of people and bond between me and my parents are not as close. I started estranging myself eversince I started to feel excessive pressure and expectations they put on me and I'm really not enjoying about the whole subject of engineering. But now, it was okay. Furthermore, they had not been very supportive when I had not achieved my usual Aces in exams. But things changed when they learnt about my broke up. They actually consoled me and called me each day to make sure I'm fine. That's when I realised, they will be the ones who would stay with me forever and their love for me will never fade. I really, really am sorry to my parents and I love them so much!

I can say, I've changed. Wiser perhaps. It's a world with mostly deceptions, therefore, honesty though the best policy, it'll kill you at times. Regardless of everything, things had happened, whether it's what you expected or not. What's most important is try to keep yourself cheerful despite what happened although most of the time, we'll be haunted with unhappiness that bestowed upon us.

*p/s: blog readers, it'll be along time that i'll be updating this blog cause i'll be bloody busy towards year end and whole of december. but i'll fluorish things up with more pictures and wonderful experiences:) Bye for now!

twilight

2008-11-28T05:42:00.000-08:00

So far, for year 2008, there's only two movies that gave actually gave me impact...one is "The Dark Knight" and the other one is "Twilight".

The movie is wonderfully beautiful and it really digs up some romance in you:) and it's best if you watch it with your loved ones.

and here are some of my favourite scenes:

by the river edge

when edward first rescued bella

at the prom

dating on top of the tree

it's just so sweet and the best dialouge that i find most catchy and impactful

"i'm erotically and unconditional in love with him"

*p/s: it's hard to love but when it comes, its seems to be worth everything but it sometimes just cause too much pain.

Sneek-a-Peek

2008-11-26T09:07:00.001-08:00

It's exactly 1.08a.m. and i'm still wide awake or perhaps I'm pretty sleepy but I can't seem to sleep due to my chronic coughing. It's slightly cold tonight due to the drizzles outside. I've been facebooking hours and hours, browsing through one profile to another, lost! My eyes are closing and my chest and throat hurts...

Well, I can say I hadn't had a good day. Something has been bothering me and I don't like it. I have no exams, no homework, no trouble, no nothing! and I'm basically free of worries temporarily minus BTN. Unfortunately, there's still this little problem and it's name is FENDY. I just don't get myself, why the hell am I still thinking of someone who does not even care. I just tend to have very strong feelings about him. I don't know what's going on, either my 6th sense is ringing-is everything alright with him over there? or I'm mentally unstable(emo). Screw me for thinking so much! I musn't.

I finished watching Pearl Harbour. I had been watching it over and over again and had never got bored of it. A really beautiful love story:) I guess maybe I'm just too tired recently that I longed having someone...that can be a reason why I had been thinking of him.

Furthermore, my mood had not been temperate due to my surrounding. Sometimes, little things can tingle some uneasiness.

Here are two pictures which i find very meaningful.

Gabai

2008-11-26T05:26:00.000-08:00

The next day right after the dogdgeball, we went for a trip down to Sungai Gabai. Initially, it was a plan to Sungai Congkak but there was a change of plan so we all ended up in Gabai. The best thing there is that, there's a WATERFALL!

The place looks so refreshing and serene

from left: salman, yan, me, hadi, hanif and saufee(the one sitting)

and also with ash, amy, cherap and budiman(not in the pic)

and here's some beautiful waterfall snaps and thanks to budiman who took our picture:)

the finale

2008-11-26T03:45:00.000-08:00

21 november marks the end of AS exam and also the last day for the 1.5 years students. We ended with our physics 1 and it was quite okay comparing to it's 2nd paper. and our 1.5 year friends whom were also our ex-classmates finished their course!

eanas, visha, petra, fatin, yien hsiu and choh yee

they looked so happy and everything just seem to pass so fast. i still rmbr the 1st time i met them during chemistry with mr. geroge.

they came to KDU earlier than us and they are the ones who showed us what to do in georgy's class or we are really dead meat. we were still freshbies with georgy's weird attitude!

see the pic above?

it's KDU's new team for Dodgeball. Really prud of these dudes above!

they made a remarkable history and performance in the UnityDodgeball Tournament by Malaysian Association of Dodgeball in SEGI College Kota Damansara Campus.

here's the team!

they who actually had only like less tahn 5 trainings and also totally newbies to dodgeball actually made it to the semifinals and beaten lots of previous champions!

i'm so proud of them!

and here are the girls!

amy 1 and amy 2 (we have 2 amy-ies)and yan played

while me, farah, yien hsiu and ash became the ultimate cheerleaders!

We all had a great time that night which actually ended at around 2a.m.!

Right after that, we went to SS2 Murni for a super late dinner or maybe a super early breakfast! and the happiness doesn't end there only.

we had a little surprise for our amy(azhar)

everyone had been busy for AS and haven't actually did anything special for her

so we decided to something for our little girl!

it was indeed one of the happiest day after such a long time. i couldn't even remember when was the last time i actually felt lightened up:) i love this day!

soon

2008-11-24T15:15:00.000-08:00

my blog has been dead over a week...

and so am i!

getting sick and fatigue:(

will update it soon!

toodles and laters:)

Coincidentally combined

2008-11-18T23:48:00.000-08:00

It's a red and yellow day I can say

Coincidently, everyone just have someting red and yellow on them

philip and ganesh, the identical twins is in yellow and red(two guys at both ends)

me with my yellow T and "beg merah", Yan with her yellow sweater and red shoes(she has yellow socks too), farah's yellow sleeves and red sweater!

syamil's in white and i'm in yellow

farah's the combination of us both

amy and the yellow bag i carried are both polka-doted!(initially Yan used the bag which I later on switched cause my beg merah doesn't match my shoes)

we got a picture of eveyone, we can't miss Toby too right?

He's growing fatter recently and smarter too i guess...

Fatty-poo~

when i'm about to see colours

2008-11-18T17:11:00.000-08:00

isn't the colour effect of this umbrella nice?

i bet some people just get a tingle of sweetness from the bottom of their heart at the first glance of this picture...well, i did:)

the black and white days of exams and it's soon going to end finally.

i can see and feel it coming alright, i know it's going to end on friday

3 months(plus the trials)...

i wonder how everyone pulled through it

okay maybe one of us did not make it and i wonder how is he lately

no matter what, he is still an ex-classmate:) and he gave me doll before and also a friend

although after this period, there will still be a national camp(some sort of) with exams of the whole of Malaysian History, i rather go through it then sitting here everyday, thinking and worrying about tomorrow's exam and planning which to read... i'm getting bit tired of it.

And what's best is that I just can't wait to leave this place...not forever yet but at least for a short short while. That would be enough:) I'm not a greedy person, I will be contented with a short break! vacations...AHA! that will be shopping spree too:) weeeee....and I AM GOING HOME!

it's a place of escapde of all misery here!

i'm having chemistry exam in another few hours and i'm blogging here.

and i haven't finished my revisions...

i start draining some brain juice "psssss"--->my juices are all out!

laters dear blog!

my prayers for everyone:

may your life be painted with wonderful colours and sweetness and be shaded safely with love

Coffee Shop

2008-11-17T22:18:00.000-08:00

This song is just so beautiful and romantic:)

"Falling In Love At The Coffee Shop" by Landon Pigg

2008-11-15T06:23:00.000-08:00

"for the real world…noweredays our bangsa melayu telah ditindas secara terang2 oleh kaum cina n india. kita sebagai pewaris bangsa perlu mempertahankn hak kita selaku tuan kepada tanahair tumpah darah kita."

i'm attending the BTN in another 2 more weeks.

it's suppose to be a camp for patriotism for overseas bound students.

and it's supposedly to create bonds and instill nasionalism and service for the country in everyone of us no matter of background race and religion but this is what i found in one of the blogs when i wanted to read up and find more information about the camp.

i'm not being racist but this still worries me.

is this what happens after the camp?

I'M SCARED!

here's the link of where i found it

http://kyo-nur.blog.friendster.com/2007/06/biro-tatanegara/

i need

2008-11-13T23:42:00.000-08:00

i need to keep pulling my socks for another week...just 7 more days!

AS is going to end and that would do me so relief...

i need to lose more weight

i need to get ready for BTN...my NS phobia is coming back recently after reading blogs on BTN

can i survive it?--->i have no idea...

i need a haircut... my hair's growing fast nowadays i think?? and it's really gets me on my nerves or maybe it's just me, being a hair sadist, i get satisfaction cutting my hair or i just need a change...

i need to reorganise my wardrobe cause it's so messy and i just have trouble getting to know what i want to put on every morning because my t-shirts and shorts are getting undetectable:(

i need to do something because i'm BORED!

i miss the weekend in Penang...fun, fun, fun!

I NEED SOMETHING INTERESTING TO MAKE MY DAYS PASS MORE MEANINGFULLY AND HAPPILY:)

i need a break

i'm tired of exams every days and weeks and months

i'm tired of feeling guilty doing all other things other than studying

i think i'm having a turning 20 syndrome too( sort of like menopause but not exactly- just hormonial imbalance*swts*)

i need to go home because i miss home:(

i missed my flight back home last raya

and i need my loved ones

Fingers

2008-11-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

I read it on syamil's blog and i find it rather interesting...so i took the test!

You Are the Index Finger

You are ambitious, driven, and capable.
You aren't afraid to take responsibility for your actions - or place the blame on whoever deserves it.
You are honest, free thinking, and objective. You see things in your own way - and you aren't afraid to let everyone know about it.

You get along well with: The Thumb

Stay away from: The Ring Finger

What Finger Are You?

*p/s to syamil: the test told me to stay away from ring finger and you are one of them:)hehe

Pearl of Orient

2008-11-10T05:34:00.000-08:00

Had one of the funniest and most memorable trip in Penang with Amy, Yan and Cheryl over the weekend:) It was suppose to be a trip for exam as Amy and Yan are taking their IELTS in Penang. As for me, I decided to take a break and join them(like i mentioned in my previous post)

greeted by the golden bridge of penang once we arrived

in the bus to penang

We landed in Sg.Nibong bus terminal which is the island of Penang. We took a cab straight down to Georgetown(the city) and checked in Red Rock Hotel along Jalan Mc Callister.

After that, our exploration begins!

We ate, walked and enjoyed every single thing surrounding us and all in a sudden we caught notice of one of the advertisement at a saloon. A haircut+wash--->RM 15!!! and AHA! we are all SO GOING FOR A HAIRCUT!

With our messy hair, we took a picture, we were so excited to look for place to get a hair cut.

While walking around hunting for a suitable saloon, we went into shops and try on everything we can find:)

YES and in the end we all got a haircut...but

it rained while walking back to the hotel so we all got soaked!

We went back to the hotel quite early that night because Amy and Yan are going to have their IELTS the next morning.

DAY 2

Amy and Yan went for exam and I'm all alone. I decided to go for a morning walk along Mc Callister Road.

here's one of the old chinese shop lots i found in some little junction...it's just so artistic and beautiful.

I met up with Uncle Dennis at around 10.00 in the morning and had Penang's Curry Mee!

the spicy and tempting curry mee.

After that, went back with Uncle Dennis in Queensbay to drop by for a visit, meeting my Aunt Sophia and my little cousins.

I later went back to the city and met up with Cheryl and her friend whom she brought as our tour guide, Nathan. While waiting for Amy and Yan to finish exam, we visited the Burmese temple.(upload the pics later)

At around 2.30p.m. we picked Amy and Yan up from Disted-Stamford College(where they took their IELTS) and drove up to Air Hitam for a visit to the infamous Kek Lok Si Temple (the largest temple in Malaysia)

However, we lose our way while going up hill and ended up in Bukit Bendera!!

behind us, it's the view of the whole island of Penang

we went further up the hill and there's a water reservoir...

the exquisite scenery at the reservoir!

by the beautiful empangan somewhere on top of Bukit Bendera

the scenery is just too exquisite that we can't help snapping more pictures.

with Yan

with amy

pop-a-doodle doo...

from left: Nathan and Cheryl who brought us around and me

we really owe them a big time!

all the way down hill

We later went down bukit bendera and visited Kek Lok Si:) Yan and Amy had their first visit to a TEMPLE! readers, don't be surprised, they are what i can proudly call MALAYSIANS!

at the rounded entrance of the temple...

hundreds of Buddhas in a row

little wishing water-lily lamps lited

with my dragon zodiac statue

Then, we drove down to the foothill and tasted the famous LAKSA PENANG OR AIR HITAM!

it taste fantastic! we are so going to miss it and it will never be the same again when we eat laksa...and it's freaking RM 2.50!

We basically just drove and go around Penang the whole of the evening, looking around while thinking of FOOD... Penang is a total food paradise! and thanks to it i put on weight*sigh*

stopped at gurney's seaside for a walk

we missed the sea and see how happy when we see one??

the lited city hall at night (beautiful)

But whatever it is, the most unexpected incident of the day is....

we crashed a wedding while looking for nearby toilet...lol...

we were looking for a washroom and we walked to this public hall which might have a possibility of having a public accessible toilet and a wedding was held there. we took the advantage to join the crowd and take pictures of the groom and bride...

some people there were looking at us awkwardly because our attire is so-not-suppose-to-be-at-a-wedding!

After all the visits, we checked into our new accomodation, Hutton Lodge...we had a hard time looking for it but we still managed to find it. It's a small restored Victorian building and is just so sweet.

DAY 3

We woke up early and had a heritage walk in Penang... We walked to Chinatown and Little India of Penang

At the main entrance of Hutton Lodge

Campbell Road

It's full of Chinese shoplots and is part of Chinatown

Wet market along Cintra Road

Sunday morning in Penang...quite and peaceful

old chinese building

the joss stick maker

amy is the same colour as the building...muahaha...

masjid kapitan keling

beautiful building artwork at some chinese street

some shop in little india selling all kinds of indian accesories

after Chinatown and Little India, we returned to our lodging and checked out and walked to Perangin Mall...

before that, we had the famous penang char kuey in Jalan Cintra

it's really nice!

An here, WE eventually became 8TV unofficial crew for One In A Million Roadshow!

we initially wanted to have a snap with Qushairi(Qi) from Destinasi Bajet since we are on one. In the end, we sealed a deal with him. We help to cheer and attract crowd and have pic with him! and we did!

cheering and taking picture in the middle of the crowd. I can't believe we did it...

we got our million dollars picture with him!

the guy in the poster is the guy singing on stage

our final destination, Queensbay!

but before such a beautiful shot,

we jatuh bergolek-golek!

there's a price to pay for beautiful pictures!

my favourite candid picture in Queensbay

but whatever it is ladies and gentlemen, the picture of the day is....

YIPPIE!

Bad WEEK"S"

2008-11-06T03:53:00.000-08:00

one week is to finish soon again

and i had not found peace for weeks...

as long as I rememebered, i had been crying for three consecutive weeks

had a hard time, pressured and disturbed

basically everyone's been going through some rough moments this week

too much of plans that didn't work out especially exam schedule and also unexpected notices and events.

I got sued by U Mobile for not paying bills the previous saturday. Actually it happened due to some misuse of my identification card. Had a super hectic day that day. In the morning, I had to go to college to submit some papers and then, i received a call from Arfah that she had an accident. Went to the scene and helped her out. When everything's settled, it's already noon. I was so tired that I just hope to sleep but too bad, I still have the U Mobile case to settle. I went all the way down to Sunway pyramid because the main office was there. There's an alternative but all the way down in Bukit Bintang... I went to the office earlier on but they told me to come to Sunway's branch(that's the only two branch in Selangor by the way). That Saturday, Syamil, Farah, Amy and Izyan are all having exams (their SAT), so I decided to go down to Sunway and meet up with them after exam and aslo settle my case.

When I reached the office, they told me that I can't terminate the account and needed the police report. I was quite pissed at the instant and tried negotiating with what the officers in Bukit Bintang told me: they told me not to do anything nor lodge any reports but just go to the Sunway Office, write a termination letter and send in with the bills and documents that I received from U mobile... In the end, I came all the way back to Damansara to lodge a report. Eventually, my mobile went out of battery and worst of all out of cash. And I have no idea why That particular second, I was really thinking, GOD, are u playing me or what? I tried seeking out for help and I can hardly call... trying to save every little Joule's of enery of the phone... Too bad no one's around nor willing to help. I just knew that I can't live poor and I'm a person who needs lots of money to feel secure. Or maybe I just lived a pampered life??? I WAS SERIOUSLY ABOUT TO TEAR! ( i cried already actually)...by the way, the only good thing in the end is that i learnt how to use a PUBLIC PHONE...

It's been a tearful week too because I knew he is back and he refused to meet. I was really getting tensed and intensed... I called him and I hate myself for it. In the end of the day, I still did not get to see him and now we are not talking at all. He hates me I know. I don't hate him, nothing and I just loathe myself because I can never forgive myself...

Then, Yan, Amy and Farah encountered TOEFL exam reservations and then had to do on their own. Yan an Amy registered for IELTS and gonna do it in Penang, while Farah decided to do it back in Miri. But out of a blue moon, the college suddenly confirmed a date with them in Mid November and they had registered individually for other tests. Yan and Amy is still going to do their IELTS in Penang this coming Saturday and I'm going to join them for a trip there. We are all going to Penang for good. Hoping to clear all our tears and instill more joys. Unfortunately, Farah couldn't come with us; whatever it is, we are still going to call and cheer her up:)

19 minus 3; Harris, Yuven and Fawaz... our dear classmates who are no longer with us anymore... Life sometimes are just not as fair and as we really hope it to be. We are all struggling here and sometimes, when it comes to certain extend where we can't take it, things just get screwed up. I thought my life is really bad and sucks too(there's never-ending exam like almost everyday for consecutive months and breakup that crushed me into pieces and worst of all life is so dull and routined that i can get cuckoo) but it's still better than some individuals who are having harder times... Hopefully, these 3 classmates of mine will find their way to their dreams, happiness and peace in mind. 16 of us here will still be fighting for another 6 months and find places where we will belong to... May God bless us.

Right now, I just hope this hard and sad year of 2008 will end... I had a miserable 2007 and it had ended, praying for a great 2008 but it just don't seem that great... whatever it is, I'm still hoping for a great 2009 and i believe it's going to be great because i'm going to have a new beginning and new life somewhere in UK... and I'm stepping into my 2nd decade of life in another 2 more months...i'm scared about it but i'll still come to it:)

tomorrow is friday and Penang here i come. I remembered I went there to release stress early of the year and this time I'm back there to do exactly the same thing. I hope things will really get better. though the place i really want to go is HOME. i longed for my family because they will stay with me forever no matter what and how bad things are going to be and i never really realised it until Fendy left me and never be seen. It's like someone I really loved just died... and it hurts so much. Maybe, it's better to take him that he just died.

By the way, I haven't blooged about my granduncle who passed away recently (abt 4 weeks ago) and the same week Fendy left( i was really devastated that week and don't know whom to go to but to cry silently and even when i sleep)... May he rest in peace. Because of him, there's papa and because of him, there's us... I haven't been back for funeral due to exams but will visit him when I'm back end of the year.

And now the latest problem, the taekwondo club...really don't know what's gonna happen but really in a critical stage. will learn more about it and see how things goes.

*p/s: that's all i guess...it's gonna be boring but i just need a place to release all the thoughts that keeps me down and frustrated. Yan, Amy, Farah and Syamil, if I seem a bit moody recently when we are going out or doing something, I'm sorry...I really couldn't help it. and to anyone else whom i made angry off, i'm sorry too:)

morning!

2008-11-02T15:16:00.000-08:00

good morning...and here i am, tapping my fingers on my keyboard, printing words on my blog again. it's been long since i had a peaceful sleep and i had one last night except for the fact that i still keep on dreaming abt someone.

the bus is not here yet and i still have sometime, so i decided to blog. just feel like expressing myself. it's a beautiful morning. how nice if i can still have time to brew a mug of hazelnut white coffee and enjoying it right now, while reading some papers...life...so beautiful

but too bad, i have a reality here. tomorrow's physics practical and i haven't started at all. and chemistry 2 the next day...biggie cries:( i'm just so scared...

okay, gtg....it's 7.30a.m. and got to rush down to catch the bus:)

all for now and will have somemore later if i have the time and MOOD too...

sunshine

2008-11-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

i took farah's candy and start munching...then i made it into this, cause i was thinking about sunshine, where to find it?

does it look like a sun or stg? well, i think it looks like one so yeah...IT'S SUNSHINE:)

hope

2008-10-31T04:29:00.000-07:00

dear blog,

i haven't been telling any interesting stories this recently ezpecially October. Life hasn't been that smooth and promising. I'm busy, stressed and disturbed... and so is majority people around me. It's exam season, everyone's really working our arse off and also at the same time, feeling so fade up and helpless... sigh.

Well, my classmates who are going to be sitting for SAT will be done soon enough. By then, it's just As left. Things will be better and definitely more loose comparing to the current situation which is like the peak of it.

I got charged by some phone line company recently. Hopefully, things can be settled by the end of this week... The whole thing just keeps me topsy turvey:( but headache's gonna be gone soon:)

to my dear friend those whom i'm suppose to made to Terengganu with, I'm so sorry I can't make it. I have exam this coming week and I'll be super tired by the time I return due to the long journey and energy used to look for the place we are heading to. Hopefully, she's doing well and I'll pray for her so that she can get well soon.

I'm still pushing myself to study here cause I've been too relaxed. I really need to make myself a temporary nerd. Just for another 2 weeks and I'm free. I really don't like the idea of going for BTN this coming December but right now, I'm starting to look foward for the camp because I have nothing else to look foward to.

After that, I'll be off for vacation and be back in January. I just can't wait for December and the New Year. More places to explore and more fun to have. Can't wait! Except for the fact that there's going to be exam right after the december break, everything's gonna be perfect! Amy, if you are reading this, i'm really hoping for my Danau Toba:) and hopefully papa can approve me to fly to chiang mai with him.

People around me, near or far, close or distant, as long as you're someone that knows me, wendin here gives you all her love! And the most love to my family and my darling friends who had always been there for me. I'm just so full of love right now... maybe after overcoming lots of overwhelming things... *big sigh of relief*

i look foward towards tomorrow. hoping to see sunshine...

I

2008-10-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

"i smile, i cheer, i laugh, i play, i fool, i joke, i scream, i shout, i clap, i buck up, i nerve, i hearten, i lighten, i love, i care, i tender, i hug, i kiss, i miss, i hope, i bless, i give, i reach out, i hate, i loathe, i cry, i mourn, i hurt, i broke, i take, i sulk, i abhor, i dominate, i rebel, i envy, i give up"

i'm the sunshine i'm the cumulonimbus

i just want to know who am i

and what i'm looking for

i just have too much to do and worry that i don't know which to do and which comes first.

but somehow, somewhere, sometime, i still have to come to it in the end

to everyone out there who's in the situation that i'm in right now especially my fellow mates,

KAMBATEH!

happy stuff

2008-10-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

i deleted the previous post cause it's really pathetic that you say of life tired and stuff

let's talk happy now:)

toby is actually becoming a hamster finally! and he's coping up with his new wheel and the stairs in his new cage...( intially i thought i just got a blunt hamster but it turns out that he is just a late bloomer)..."toby, u are so cute" but beware, he bits people that he doesn't like...kekeke... never judge a book by it's cover because looks are extremely decisive... especially those who seems so pity and helpless...

he eats lots and lots of brocollis too and i think he is growing or it's just my pyschology saying so...

i'm gonna be getting black belt soon, either this year end or early next year:) wheee...finally 2.5 years of delay (it's all because of these exam shits)...whatever it is, it's still a yay!

i just went through a super sad period of time these two weeks... and thanks to amy, yan, farah and syamil and toby too that everything is getting better. wound is healed though scars will never. and melanie too, she's such a cupcake! and here's a super big hug and sticky kisses for you all.

there's always the bright and gloomy side. for the gloomy side, i hope you won't be haunting me anymore. it's just repeatedly the same thing and i'm bored of it... i bet everyone is if the same thing happens again and again though a clear cut decision has been made and stated black and white somemore with witnesses. if it's a hanging decision made in the past, then we can't blame the gloomy part to return tormenting our minds.

think happy:) though at times emotions are overwhelming...

*p/s: look into your heart and you'll know if you are really happy or not because no one knows ourselves better than anyone ^^

disconnected

2008-10-26T15:59:00.000-07:00

when the disconnection happens, guards are now off. i cried with love and hatred.

uncommon encounters

2008-10-26T00:02:00.001-07:00

today is a crazzzzeeeeeyyyy day!

well, it started last night.

when i was getting some dinner for toby in the kitchen, i heard loud cries of a girl "someone help me please!"- like she's being tortured or raped... then i was so stunned that i ran out to the kitchen balcony trying to detect where that noise came from. the scream came again and the chill started to penetrate my bones that i ran to ask for farah... she said she heard screams but unsure what it was. so we both went to the kitchen balcony and listen properly again. it turns out that some neighbour is watching a movie...(so lame isn't it??)

the sunray's shining upon me and it's hot already

likewise i would feed toby then get back to whatever work i have.

all in a sudden it struck me again... strong feelings for fendy, it was really strong. it hadn't been occuring since the last time i had a conversation with him over the phone. it's been almost a week ago. i really went numb after the last conversation and had made sure that i'm off. it's enough of me being so pathetic... my fault for falling for someone another time though the last time i was really scared of it.

then i cancelled of the movie thingy with Kim again cause I'm really not in the mood after the feeling struck me. We both planned for the movie lots of time but something seem to stop me. Should i go tomorrow? I'm still thinking about it.

I went to police station today to make a extention report for my lost driving license which i had forgotten to include it in the previous report i made months ago. The place looks empty and I'm the only commoner there with two policemen there. I went up to the enquiry counter and tell them my case and they told me to wait. While awaiting, three different people came in, within an interval of half an hours time. One lost his wallet, one lost his phone and the other one is asking for directions. And suddenly, a woman came in with two bags of food. Can see that there's 'cendol' cause the plastic bag is transparent. She smiled at one of the police officer and kept quiet. I thought she's a delivery woman or stg. Then, she said she's here to see ***(someone which i have no idea of the name) very politely and soft spoken. One of the policemen escorted her into a openway behind the enquiry desk. And then i heard her crying..."brother" so miserably. I got a shock. Okay, i'm scared. The policemen which had been on his desk smiled at me and ask me over to the desk.

Then i made my report. It took me half an hour only. After that, i decided to take a walk... where to? the place is near college and so, i decided to go see Mimi! it's sunday and i bet no one who knows fendy and me will be there. then at least i can play with Mimi for a while:) I walked for about ten minutes till i reach there and the sun was excruciatingly hot. She's such a darling Love her so much. When i waved at her, she came straight at me waving her tail too... I managed to take snapshots of her and gave her few last pats and off i go... i'm scared to be noticed.

that's mimi!

i guess it's nostalgic season too especially if it's towards the end of the year. i read all my previous posts and one which i got tagged, one of my greastest fear is to fall in love and i did it again. and guess what, the post is only one week before i met fendy. Next time, better don't write all these stuff cause you can never know nor see it coming. "Pantang!"

just another day

2008-10-24T02:56:00.000-07:00

as usual, i would jst sit here by my working table where, i look at the sky outside, enjoying the weather, watching TV at the same time and blogging or reading. it's even cosier when i have a mug of hot choc or white coffee with me:) nice...

my fingers are itching again and that's why i'm here... now it's even better when toby's by my side. watching him restless, i just can't help grinning and laughing myself.

today has been a peaceful day. class finishes at 9.00a.m. cause mr.geroge is sick and chem class cancelled. it's really rare that it happens. everyone's relieved about it. then had a slice of 'roti telur' and 'teh tarik' at the mamak near by the condo. then had a walk in One Utama with Farah till noon then came home and sleep till evening(the weather is too nice to resist the bed)... guess all my exhaustion for the week is recovered. and one whole day is about to end. the sky is getting dark now. and in another few hours it'll be night and when night finishes, the sun will unveil itself in the morning sky. today will be yesterday and tomorrow is just another day.

it's been two weeks since he had gone. i just can't help counting days he left. it'll always come to him whenever i'm not doing anything...

here's some exquisite dinner that farah and i cooked... our so called 'asian style fish and chips' -cause we really have nothing much, so we just mix what we had and made the best out of it. it's taste good though:)

AS will only officially finish end of november... i just want this year to end... hoping days can pass really fast. it's been a sad year. so was last year. when will the happy year or maybe just happy days will come? i don't know. guess i'll just pray and wait...

Toby

2008-10-23T03:47:00.000-07:00

This is Toby(Tobby?)any spelling would do cause I'm not too sure about the spelling too...

and his birthday is today! (23rd October 2008) it's the day he became wendin's

he is extremely naugthy and active...he just can't stop moving.

when he is tired, he'll stay still like for less than 60 seconds and start moving again

he is shy at the same time too especially when i wanna have a snap of him

here's the flowery box where i'll temporarily place him...(it looks nice lah)

he just enjoys hiding under the pieces of papers that i place as the 1st layer bedding

he got a round but and a little white tell but can't really see:(

he is getting sleepy

wee...wee...i just keep staring though i dont know what he is up to.

he is scratching himself...gaga

i bought and chose toby with syamil. he's the most active hamster when i was at the stall. and it caught my attention. it's little plumpish body and it looked at us, trying to bite us. and he's it. he is gonna be mine today:)

it's been like 6 hours already that i owned toby and i really like it. i have a living thing to take care of. and at least he'll accompany me. i'm still getting to know him cause whenever i touch him, he still runs...it'll take some time i guess.. but who cares, i have him:)

i went to see Mimi again. and as usual, i play with her, hug her a little and pat her... Miss that little thing. She's partially my pet too. wish i can keep her like toby but too bad, she's too big and can't place her in the condo.

But as long as i'm still here, in KDU or PJ, both Mimi and Toby will be under my care. Will give them lots and lots of love. I just love pets or more generally ANIMALS!

someone waiting

2008-10-22T04:32:00.000-07:00

my fingers are again so eager and when this happens, i'll always come back to the blog

where i mumble, complain, love, cry, laugh and smile:)

i don't really have much idea what am i up to right now

maybe i'm still in search for some happiness...might not be a lasting one but at least a temporary one that can help me go through my last 7 months here.

loneliness and emptiness cant be avoided. it will always be there no matter how many people i have around me. i guess i just dont have to do anything about it. as far as i'm concerned, i guess i tried too hard to do something about it. i have to admit i'm too scared of feeling alone. it happens to everyone but it's just that i got devastated about it this time with him.

i just need to find a mate that can give me hope everyday and knew that he/she is going to be there and will have something to look foward to.

today i went back to his house while walking back from college. his dog came to me running and cuddled herself around my feet... Mimi...love that dog. I naturally curved a warm smile towards her and I know, she misses me and she'll always be there waiting for those whom she is familiar with and would play and love her. She's a beautiful, innocent, old dog. guess, i will visit her everyday whenever i'm around:) i know she'll be there.

i'm planning to get a pet. a little one so that it'll be more convinient to place it at my little condo and definitely easier to bring it around. Had a chat with syamil and we'll see how things goes tomorrow and might be getting a hamster...let's hope for a good news tomorrow:)

*p/s: i'll post some pictures for Mimi the next time i log in again. i have better get studying cause chemistry practicals will be tomorrow.

green no more

2008-10-18T19:21:00.001-07:00

i think i just stopped liking green

as it is a well-known fact that everything of me is GREEN

just everything from head to toe, inside out, physically and mentally

i've been doubting about my favourism towards green these few days

and right now... i can confirm that i no longer love that colour

OMG, what in the world is happening? there's no ND(natural disater) and DD(deadly diseases) and i just don't know why after so many years of liking that sweet colour...i can't even recall since when..pttf

a change of taste and heart i guess... so what's my next favourite COLOUR?

i don't know yet.

*p/s: folks, i think i'm confused with colours...

2008-10-18T06:01:00.001-07:00

'if u love something, set it free. if it comes back, it is yours; if it doesnt, it never was'

here's what michelle(my opponent during sparring and then turns out to be my buddy told me)

it's really poetic lo:)

*p/s: michelle da jie, you got inner asian chinese shakespearean potential...hahahaha

A little thought

2008-10-15T06:45:00.000-07:00

It's going to be a week since fendy left and this one whole week i've learnt and reflected a lot about life. Some say life is never fair while some say life is actually fair and we will realize it when the time comes.

Sometimes, we don't get things the way we want. (Well, it happens to everybody) We just have to accept it at times. But what keeps me wondering is that why people still try to change things though it's for a known fact that we can't change certain things at times? It's already been made that way.

I always wanted a happy and simple life. I can do subjects that I like and be surrounded with people I love. Though there will still be problems, but what's life if there's no ups and downs:)

But seems like I'm fated for other stuff. I'm now living a competitive life with lots of expectations. I have a scholarship to fulfil and expectations from some people. I have to struggle and compete with myself to achieve what I actually have not much interest of. I'm still confused what's the point of me trying so hard each day since it's not really what I want. (I mean, no one get what they want as in EXACTLY)

Maybe, Amy's right. We are just making the best each day of what we have. (Amy, you might be way younger than me but you have think and take life way better than me. You've been through a lot too- LOVE YOU)

I just sort of loose the spirit especially after fendy had gone. I'm still adjusting to what I have currently. Last time, I used to complain that I have to adjust to him(cause he are both hard-headed and at times I'm just more childish and teenagers like me rebels). I got too used to having him that I have to adjust back to not having him. Now, I should be making the best of what I have now(which is without fendy).

A lot of people would think that now it's not the right time that I actually have to focus more on my studies and not getting emotional about relationships. But they don't understand. As far as I go, I never neglected my studies(which is what I do for living right now). I just want to have something else other than that or maybe a commitment.

I talked to Shidotte today too. At times I guess, if there's only a single commitment(for students like us-STUDIES/SPORTS), it's boring. Well, maybe at times we are just in search for something new that can give us a refreshing feeling in life:)

*p/s: we might be young and at times people find us wrong but as long as we know what we are doing, we are safe. Just make the best out of what we have-got it from amy

you belong to me

2008-10-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

heard this song last night

makes you wonder

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

do you still belong to me?

3rd Taekwondo MAPCU 2008

2008-10-11T10:02:00.000-07:00

We had our 3rd MAPCU and KDU got the 3rd place overall though we send the least participants( it's not we don't want to send more but it's because we are such a small group) everyone did a superb job cause we all got medals...each one of us got home stg:)

Initially when i reached Monash, I sort of didn't like the venue cause it's outdoor and I don't like it hot and sweaty especially when you need to sparr... but then it turns out fine and it's okay.

I got a silver...won't the first match(against michelle teo INTI) but lost the second(to Xian Jun KDU)... and fendy, if you are reading this, sorry no gold for you but i got you a silver one...(beat you still:P)

I got really really shakey each round and thinking that i'll just die of exhaustion and being beaten to death...gagaga... still alive though but sort of gonna be paralysed due to the damn back pain and i got a black blue leg(no need to wear black skinny socks cause it's sexy enough)

As usual, wherever i go and whatever i do, never miss the so-called 'cam whoring' session:) got few pics from the tournament cause was sort of busy and nosy around with stuff and people.

KDU TAEKWONDO TEAM FOR THE 3RD MAPCU COMPETITION:)

the only 5 female fighters from KDU

we are opponents but who cares- PEACE everyone!

a really gay but sleep morning(check out our eye bags)- mine is obviously like rotten papaya

aren't we muscular??

the picture of the day with the ultimate sexy cam whorers

(from left: cheryl, yunglin, me and ivy)

my coach during preliminary round( i bribed her that's why i won)

my coach during the finals (he can't be bribed so i lost)

u la-la...cuckoo (got hit on our wires when we sparr-like what melanie says)

we just cant help showing some pose if the camera is around

(from left: me, samantha, melanie, xian jun and cheryl)

from left: xian jun, me and michelle (feather weight black&brown belt winners)

during the end of the tournament with our medals with teck loon, sir, admiral sponsor rep and jeff

*p/s: there's more pics to come...i got to go sleep cause my bloody back pain and blues are killing me:(

million love, million tenders

2008-10-10T04:59:00.000-07:00

fendy finally left for indonesia

seeing him leaving knowing that he won't be coming back

and i will really miss him all the happy times we had and stupid stuffs we did; his hugs and tenders and even miss the way he gets annoyed especially when i disturb him sleep, his childishness especially when it comes to dota and manga*swt*-though at times it will pump your patience up your head that you are about to get stroke; all his little habits when he eats and sits and reads etc.

hate it when we quarrel cause it hurts but that's where we understood and learnt about each other more

it's going to be the tournament day tomorrow...

i can't gather my spirit for the battle yet

i really don't know if i can get through with it

AS is starting next week

i'll work hard for it

that will distract me from thinking too much

it'll be stressful and tiring but somehow would be better than me crying for hours and hours

(once i cry, i can't stop, that's the problem and i'll get really drained)

that's all for now i guess

i'm too exhausted for now

when it's time

2008-10-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

it's going to be monday tomorrow and fendy's leaving on a friday

time flies fast recently

i just cant seem to see enough of him and spend enough time with him

had a really nice talk with izyan last night...

and there's just one thing about girls... their "HEART"

they seem to think lots and complicated at times when it comes to some matters especially realtionship but till the end, it's just one simple thing is that, they just long for the person in their heart to be there, knowing every little thing regardless important or not:)

at times, we really hope that we can grow up fast and reach our destinations

we tend to get really tired especially around this time: where we have exams like every week that we have to worry about it every second and every breath... feeling the guilt of not studying and just couldn't get the drive to do it!

for me right now, i have nothing in mind except for my last few days with fendy and my coming soon AS...and for the tournament, i'm really not sure if i can go through with it. i couldn't think about it anymore... will i be strong enough to go into a ring for a battle. i know i somehow will be emotionally affected on friday. i'll breakdown for sure...

somehow, the time will come and i'll put it aside first. i just want to be happy for another few days before i really have to go through one of the sadest phase of life that i have to be in. though i said that i will let things go between me and fendy when the time comes. but i know i will still tend to long and wait for him for quite sometime.

unsurprised surprise

2008-10-04T07:02:00.001-07:00

wanted to give fendy a surprise farewell but it turns out that he sort of guessed it:(
got him a french made leather belt
the belt is in the box and got him a rose too because i always tend to upset him so the rose will tell him that "i love him lots"
made a mosaic card for him on behalf of the taekwondo team... took me hours cutting and arranging pieces and bits of it but it's worth it cause the outcome is that it's nice and creative:)
and here's the choc cheese mousse that i got him...he is just as sweet and nice like the choc

all these will be my farewell for him...gonna miss him a big time... at times i wonder how would things be without him. I'm too used to having him over these pass few months. i really wonder and fear. lose him not only for a short period but forever. i fear of it.

patience

2008-10-03T09:04:00.000-07:00

no matter what misunderstanding, how hard, i must be perseverance and keep it a secret. time will come and things will be understood...

a friend once told me when the rains come, the sunshine will rise later:)

how bad is it, things will be understood for good later.

2008-09-30T21:46:00.000-07:00

i browse through blogs and personal pages

everyone around is full of cheer, smiles and happiness:

it's so sweet to see others happy

at times it just makes you smile too

i'm still alone(as in physically) right here at the condo

not lonely but peaceful

i eat, i play, i sleep (just not revising much...huhu...)

i'm just counting every second, hoping it to pass

i just can't wait to see him again

i have ten days left...240hours and i don't even know how many hours can i spend with him

he is not around

i will let things go but i fear too

i guess no one can ever imagine the fear i'm having right now

well that's the sad part

and now the happy part is "SHOPPING"

i love shopping spree's

muahaha...

it's just money (*sigh* always a limitation to desires)

MONEY, MONEY, MONEY

as usual, sad or happy, i can never avoid mischief

LOL... i'm planning on something really important

hope it works...gagaga...i'm so so so excited

if it works, then it'll be up on the blog, then if not...i'll still tell you a brief story about it...

i better get going and prepare for excitements!!!hahaha 0.O!!

Eid Mubaarak!

2008-09-30T21:34:00.000-07:00

To all my friends who celebrated Raya Aidilfitri, I would like to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and wishing you all the best and may the upcoming days in the new year be blessed with bliss:)

Next Plane Home

2008-09-26T21:21:00.000-07:00

It's friday and I'm definitely looking foward to going back home

It's Raya Aidilfitri and of course, I would like to take a break from all the hustle bustle in college especially my As worries:(

The day before, I had taekwondo training and got injured and went for a chinese traditional massage and the traffic sucks and it's raining cats and dogs...

there's just too many rush hour complications that in the end, I MISSED THE NEXT PLANE HOME... i arrived exactly the last minute at the airport and it's not like anything but i saw the gate closed... right in front of my eyes... and the plane is gone...

I'm so sorry to my parents and friends and of course my sister melenie cause it's her birthday and am looking forward to celebrate it with her and got her a surprise gift... i went blank for quite sometime standing the airport helplessly. Checked and asked for the next flight but it's fully booked and of course the price is really going to put me in a situation of bankrupcy...

Recently, there's just too many unfortunate events... and that makes a series if unfortunate events...

-i have to repeat As

-my boyfriend is leaving for his hometown and not coming back forever and settling back there

-my relationship is going to end the day he leaves because a lot of things will change

-i had another leg injury and it hurts

-just got menstrual for the month and period pain is excrutiating

-i have like tonnes and tonnes to study

-i'm suppose to go home and now i'm not...

-boyfriend is going to be busy and i'm going to be alone here!

-i'm trying to get a plane back home but circumstances really not helping...not empty seats at ALL

i just missed it all...

and i what i'm hoping now is i just want to see more sunshine ahead of me

i lost my most precious people and even chances to see them

and i'm striving really hard here making my way to UK cause it's just a super sad place here in KDU and PJ.

Tagged

2008-09-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

Got tagged by Miss Amy Azhar!

Well, for my case I'm not an extreme big fan for all these TV series but I'm do watch Prisonbreak, Desperate Housewives, Ugly Betty, Gossip Girls, CSI and House MD.

This tag, I'll choose House MD cause I really like the ruthless, funny, mischievious and yet smart Dr. Gregory House casting Hugh Laurie.

Here's some details about him(got it from the official website cause i'm too lazy to write now):

DR. GREGORY HOUSE (Hugh Laurie), devoid of bedside manner and dealing with his own constant physical pain, uses a cane that seems to punctuate his acerbic, brutally honest demeanor. While his behavior can border on antisocial, House is a brilliant diagnostician whose unconventional thinking and flawless instincts afford him a great deal of respect. An infectious disease specialist, he thrives on the challenge of solving medical puzzles in order to save lives.

Did a test on facebook and here's the character from House MD that matches me:

I'm Dr Gregory House

You respect your own opinion above everyone else's. You have drive and a dominating dedication to the rules of logic and reason, even in the face of day to day trivialities . Kindness is the least important virtue one should possess. A keen sense of perception and a strong sense of dedication are your most valued features. Not afraid to back down or change your stance or even be PC, you totally stand out wherever you go, despite standing out in an often negative way. You are House.

That's the reason why I like the show that much... it's his character that had attracted me to keep watching it:)

this is just a simple tag cause i don't know what else to write...

empty thoughts

2008-09-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

what about now?
can't you just look and appreciate for a little while...

i don't know what I'm babbling about***sorry***

my mind is blank, empty, unfilled and hollow...

today's been a day which i call okay and bad
my windows got corrupted this morning
and then my knocked the gate cause my feet wasn't that used to driving anymore or it's just because my feet isn't comfortable this morning, cant be my shoes cause i don't wear them when I drive...forget that
then i went to the bank, have to change a whole new account cause my current account is under parental guidance... so i decided to do it later...
my saving plan for the Toba Lake... calculating and working really hard on it
my revision, on the way but it tired me up a lot and i need some fun!
other stuff...was just normal...

Arghh... I just don't know... whatever(though i don't like that word)

Bye Bye

2008-09-17T05:07:00.000-07:00

I'm just romantic these few days... got really addicted to this song and I don't know but it means a lot... especially with your loved ones... hope all my readers enjoy this song:) think about people around you and appreciate them before they are really gone no matter somewhere near to God or disappear from your life though still breathing in the same air...

Mooncake Fest

2008-09-16T18:49:00.000-07:00

The full moon

This year, for the 1st time i used a telescope to enjoy the moon during moon cake's festival! It's really a not-so-normal thingy cause people look at the moon and play lantern together with their beloved ones... But for my case, it's different! That makes it so different:)

the telescope

too good to be true

2008-09-14T21:14:00.000-07:00

recently i really thought life has been treating me well...
everything just seem so perfect and i could ask for nothing more.
but there's always a saying: too good to be true
all beautiful, sweet and lovely moments just don't last.

for my case, it's not that perfect but it's just enough that i wont be any greedier to ask for more and it's perfection. I'm happy and that's all. It might mix up with a little bit of sour at times but what's life if it's sweet all the time, right??

but now, circumstances seems to be taking a lot of things from me...
why take?? i sometimes doubt that if life is fair after all.

"Life! can u hear me? I'm not a greedy person okay? If i gain something, I'll always give. In fact, I always give. I've been good but why you still seem to take away all my precious?"

I might sound pathetic but life just seem so wonderfully sad these few days. Draining droplets of liquidized pearls every time i think of it. "PATHETICism"
I've been patient, not displaying disappointment but there's always a limit for everything and my limits are at the edge and I think I'm about to fall off the cliff... (I can swim and won't die but life moves on with unforgettable yet sad moments)

things never change... time and changes is taking people and they will keep taking until the end of time!

Birthday Story

2008-09-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

It's Izyan's birthday and we went out celebrating! Had a wonderful dinner in Fish&Co. and had spent few hours which I find most meaningful yet touching!

here's what amy found in MPH while we were there:
its really something to think about...what have you made of every second of your life and appreciated every moment of it??
Yan and Amy in Fish& Co. just seem so happy:)
making adventure out of a few seconds in life... taking pics in forbidden region
just the great four
i'm really going to miss them... we have very little time left
what is friendship when there's no hardship? we've been through a lot...
just remember that there are friends for you and you as a friend for someone
we all wear bras so we know how it feels like and definitely know how it feels like to be a friend and befriended
we should have done more things, could have gotten into lots of stuff and would have been someone somewhere but here we are! Friends...
8 more months and that's all left... love you guys....

p/s: Izyan Nadirah, your birthday polah kamek romantic jak...anyway, happy birthday and love you lots....

just a little more smiles will cure it all:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZYAN!
that's our story for you

while waiting

2008-09-09T13:01:00.000-07:00

It's four a.m. and i am still wide awake. I bet I'll be sleeping in class tomorrow. It's really funny that I can stay up this late after the taekwondo training and especially it's more intense due to the tournament in October...

I tossed and tossed and tossed in bed since 12.00 a.m. and finally woke up at around 1.30a.m. and do something. I did my laundry and typed my absence letter for the coming week. I then stared at the monitor... just feeling blank. I opened up my personal statement and start reading. Then, I typed and corrected and add and add and add more and more and more details and i can't believe it... i FINISHED it! I just wrote an essay for me and my Uni application...wow...i still can't believe it... :) MY 1ST DRAFT OF P.S. IS DONE!

I just need to get someone to read through and draft it back. By end of this month hopefully, before Raya Aidilfitri, I can submit it already... hehe... so happy... and now,my last worry is regarding As. It's the only chance left to ensure that I fly...

I better get some sleep...I feel slightly drowsy already...hmmm...laters bloggy... more updates to come:)

under my umbrella

2008-09-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

it's a wet season now...raining day and night.
and on rainy seasons like this, there's definitely occurrences that slightly extraordinary from the common days:)

Farah and I went to TESCO to get some groceries for the house and eventually after shopping it's raining cats and dogs. Nevermind that because I brought along an umbrella with me...yippie! but the thing is when I opened the umbrella, it's spoilt:( some how we find it really funny and burst into laughter. I bet passer-bys will wonder what is wrong with these two girls laughing at an umbrella while carrying a bunch of big TESCO bags. Somehow, we got through a little bit of rain walking and got a cab and came back to the condo.

and today too, i decided to change my blog's layout... i just feel like i need something new:)